You find sometimes even a lot of times would like different social media videos and things that people do you find that they find one or two spots that they always seem to record themselves and you know I’ll get the thoughts together and usually it’s the bathroom and is the car if you notice that both typically you know Moses this is usually pretty small environments you know and in no small private environments people can take pictures of themselves speak about different things give advice you know sing and also said things happen inside of the cars and in the bathrooms so you find there that a lot of times when people just need for that creative genius to come out is a quiet space and a lot of times you said our homes are not conducive to: what we are now some of us are really interested in this this form and modality of spirituality but we live in homes we can put shots or we can’t leave our books out to someone may throw them out you know or we can’t sit on the phone and have a conversation with someone about our spirituality we have to go to the car to the backyard to walk away somewhere to the coffee shop and for a lot of you especially those of you may listen to maximize Monday in China for its own businesses started and things like that and where do I start always start with homebase because there is there are so many mutable things in the world that you want to have an environment when you come home that not only reflects and conducts the flow of what is it you trying to do but also as a paradise’s piece you want to come home if you can, own a piece we can you find peace like a warrior on the front line all the time and though it may sound heroic and poetic llama warrior you know what is on the frontline who never come often to go insane only two choices you shot and killed or you go crazy sit so you have to have that moment when you can repost and find the space we could be yourself and so I had spoken to her about that and also shared that you like Siddique the self inventories is important and a lot of times in our work when want to get started one of the reasons why we can’t really get things off the ground is because we haven’t done a proper self-assessment in our sometimes we do our self assessments through someone else’s eyes I wanted things you you noticed every time I asked her question she paused in them like one of the most critical questions for her answers she told me what other people say what they say this and I get that so often in my work people come to me and I speak about you are asking we think you like purposes and does say well ever since I was little people told me I was good at this of people to management abusive be that those in Texas you know so when you’re properly evaluating yourself so that you can move to the next place honestly one of the first things that you want to do buys you ask yourself work I’ve done better in on in a time in this last dispensation saver was a year two years good months but whatever you do whenever you notice in the glass vase started for you and you know you ending phasing on it some mouse – yourself for I get started with have done better before I transitioned you know could be a marriage ending work I have done better and what part did I play which is the most important question most important part that I put is often because were so quick to talk that when things happen were already shaping and forming how were going to present our story to someone else we can be doing that in the middle of arguing with someone we CMI, when this thing back down and look like a saint it out and everything centers around what I’m going to post on social media what I’m going to go on and tell everybody what I’m going to send out in the text blaster whatever and you’re not really asking yourself the honest questions what was part I played in it has to be more than I let someone do the bad thing that I’m saying so you after you ask a question like that you know usually want to like when you’re taking self inventory you want – yourself like okay what he did to me that’s never the honest answer I don’t care how many afterschool specials you watch you know that that tell you it’s nose not your fault someone else’s fault you always play a part in the matter how horrible the experie what my power PowerPoint Sina domain software but like one of my strengths you know what what am I my strong points that I need to look at and that I need to keep and begin ashes of honestly don’t don’t you know if you were in a relationship and there was a lot of problems all of the time and you are arguing your strength may not be what I speak my mind you may want to call that a strength but it may not actually be a strength it may be what people don’t like about you that everything needs to be vocalized coming only a babbling idiot would just let anything that’s on a hat are in their emotions to spill out of them for the rest of the world to do a babbling idiot pre-Madonna or someone who is is completely parasitical in our parasite to the their environment is of course obviously you want after you deal with what what am I going to want to look at where my bad honest question whether my weaknesses in and out only you know just what what my weak points what my my vulnerabilities but how can I fix them but always tell people you know what I was broke fix it you know whatever you taking self inventory and China get Jack together when I was broke just fix it start there so is the same thing you know when you dealing with the idea of your weaknesses whatever is wrong just fix it and you want to look at how can I now take the onus or the personal initiative in a personal accountability to become better at what it is I want to do or what it is I want to be a really to become what it is I want to be going forward how can I personally know and again that again takes personal accountability you can’t say what people would just leave me alone I can you know that you and I can make it that way you know you’re not gonna make it that way so that personal assessment it’s usually not a feel-good experience is not to translate into something where you to look at your day-to-day condo can say all young and I’m doing all right Inouye you may have to you review preview yourself or see yourself for a moment from the perspective of someone who wants you to do better which is your higher self and those who want to look a mess of myself I see love the way you know stop stop playing you realize Swiss is a people don’t care what your races we don’t really have the luxury to keep playing like this is think you do by individuals who know me personally and all much of talk about Mexicans all the time and I minimize wedges like build a shrine to the Mexican people at this point because I use them is like my examples of everything Mexicans Mexicans Mexicans you know because one of the things Mexicans and Dominicans I would say but Mexicans more so what are the things that I really appreciate about Mexico Mexican people is a sense of reality and you know again the most high will create you in the form that you are spiritually the typically small people large trunked short legs are very close to the ground and large chunks means you have large ribs they breathe in a lot of air typically mountainous people have those type of bills but you know so you find like they know what’s really going on and I usually always ahead of the curve quantities I like about them is a do a lot of things a lot of us like to do in terms of Michael communal living Cooperative economics collective work and responsibility the difference with them is that they realize that they have no choice you know they come into this country America may be by any means you don’t necessary and he said okay maybe I can get unemployment I can get benefits I can get this that that that that that so I’m going to have to figure out a way to make this still work for me sulk a bunch of us will will get a house or you know over and out or rooming house or whatever and were all live together will cook together a friend of mine who he’s not Mexico he is Mexican but some some area that I’ve never really heard of these I can help but he lives here now and his Gallic beautiful farmland is to be nice to drive a cab so he came in and I was teaching English because I am he wants to go back and I’d really get more tea was a buy more cabs exec better my English is the more I can drive Flight to her sister so now he’s learning, computers I got more computers but am one of the things about him I was still was interesting that he shares his bed with another brother he works as a handyman he works on a day and is another brother he works at night night does security is something like that down and sitting so they actually share the same bed because neither one of them ever in the home at the same time you know I want is sleeping the other one is away while one is his home do you know why one is back on the other one is away at work he works for them music to grown 57-year-old man you know and I don’t sleep in the bed together but they figure out a system that works for them you know we can rent a room pay nothing live in a nice neighborhood with a bunch of other of our brethren in the in the house with this is basic like is our house and we share these bags we don’t drive everybody rides a bicycle so gas prices when gas prices were gas hikes and a much talking about police brutality being profiled and pulled over now doesn’t happen pretty much stay beneath the radar riding bikes and walking everywhere in a semi and obviously is the health benefits from his ally things anguishing it with that so you find that the reality really looking at your real situation taking the evaluation and assessment it it starts to really make you realize the things that you have to do just that you are a luxury Amistad regarding the government into EM will start try to get with this food co-op way you will is not guided to these things and sometimes without taking those proper self assessments you’ll realize that years ago and I would things that she was supposed to do and you’re not setting the proper goals for yourself are you not really looking at the different areas and skills that you need to develop it because you haven’t really take that to take that evaluation based on the necessity and the urgency of your environment you know sometimes you might even realize you you might not realize what you’ve already accomplished what I said when you look at yourself from your higher self perspective or maybe even from someone like like my perspective for second and say okay well my higher self is been telling me this… Let me be honest about that and I haven’t really been in I haven’t really been fulfilling 11 and a mental Democrat caving to external influence but being honest about some of the things that you could’ve done you should have done that you really wanted to do that you expected of yourself are really being honest about how engaged you are actually in the things that will bring about what you like how engaged are you really in the work you know how in touch are you with the mission and the purpose of your personal agenda you take the opportunities that you need to take in order to grow and develop as a person and get all of these things may not fill good to deal with and what I suggest is to keep like evaluation diary for yourself or journal of human listen you may not want to diary a journal a ledger that feels stronger for you and really just see no document chronicle you word you know your accomplishments and in the accomplishes will energize you but you know you can reflect on the times when you felt conflicted or you felt irritated about things to try get done he does that to be like during daily journal dear diary today you know Tommy Simpson kissed me you know that I do that type of thing but it could be something where you just trying to apply it to the work that you doings that way at times when you need that dose of objectivity you can give that to yourself as you can easily identify the things that you want to do the things that you don’t want to do and I can tell you want to do things I’ve gotten in the habit into the habit of doing specially is up I’ve gotten a little older is to was every year that I considered was in the accident I write like a list of the things I don’t want to do next year in LA I do is show elected to the do not list you know things not to do list but you I have a Alyssa the county keep like how we review the year and say what are the things I did that I realize at this point I just wanted doing my doesn’t work for me you know what those things it could be something like I want cut my own grass and I’m done without a lot of work on my own car anymore or I don’t like cooking so often it could be to be anything you go through I don’t want to decorate I don’t like cleaning my house anymore maybe you figure out what it is for you I may be things that you’ve done for a long time because you felt that that was the right thing to do unite I know for years myself I never let anybody do any work on any of my properties because I always felt like I was felt some type of way about another man come into my home fixing something you know it sounds crazy but that was just my for years my perverted sense of my manliness some brakes I got to fix it but then as you start to grow and mature in developing the things that you really want to do you realize you don’t have the energy or the desire for other things as much anymore so nothing*falling apart is he saying you have to make an honest assessment like honestly denied that I do would need to be done with this and what needs to be done to this up and you look at and say in my really gone do that don’t want to do that speak honest with pain up and this comes to a lot of meditation in our building that life plan and following based on your own again assessments and being honest about your shortcomings and not feeling embarrassed because someone has beat you to the punch you know in terms of expressing an evaluation to you sometimes we hate that so much you know we and samosas so you are not already know about… Do not issue but you just don’t want anyone to beat you foot to the punch but you know you can’t be afraid to ask for help but ask someone to help you to tighten up in certain areas isn’t ideal by the first time you got to interview as a man and you know you had asked them I hope you did not do titi had a titi you know there’s a lot of things in order to get to the next place that you may have to consult somebody with how to write a proper resume should I have eight egg and 0.5 x 11 picture myself with my resume is acceptable you know you should just be to should I use comic sans font is at two Simpson-ish in the little things like that you know being okay with even the different points of view and the guidance that you would get from your judgments you know being appreciative for that wise counsel and feedback is important in order some that I want you to think about when you come up meditation and meditating on your own personal qualities you have like this idea of medicate medication meditation right medical my medication medical meditation they all have the same word I it’s med so you find you know that you dealing with medicine here when you meditating and reflecting on the things that you need to do in fact the original group and the Greek was medic us medic us in EDI CU SME be pronounced by nose Medicus and anyone from that it will be fun it was Aladdin and the land was McGeary and McGeary was an ED yet and BDE are immediately I might be Metairie see the material Metairie I always McGeary might be Metairie my lands a little but either way all of those words medicine medicate medical you know derive from that Metairie McGeary which it is defined as you know doing something or paying attention to something C attention at your assessment in order to accommodate or can conduct to facilitate some form of healing to bring that a situational person back to well-being someone you meditate is not just to make yourself feel good was to bring you back to well-being but you know someone important for you think about is a phrase that we use often and as you take your medicine I was usually me that means that you’re going to ingest something or you to listen to something or deal with something that is disagreeable to you so that way you being a better sit down and take your medicine you say so now what I said sit down and meditate with side wall I said at the people children all times but you know it easy sit down and meditate and in the interim we go to the meditative experience and we find that is disagreeable and in fact you are implying him and more in alignment with the idea of medicate and healing because typically going to be something that’s not is going to be disagreeable because of what you’ve done you Glenn yes you let yourself get to a point now where doing the right thing doesn’t feel good anymore or hearing the writing doesn’t feel good because you’ve crafted and created this personality and this and this idea of yourself and his assessment of yourself that is so far beyond what you actually are so when someone gives you the medicine you not motivated to make the right choices to experience better health your motivated to move away from the medicines and I want that was more candy making yourself even further say but at some point you run into a situation when you have to medicate even after meditate and a lot of times it could be physical sickness would sit you down and you can’t move in a bed Natalie now had to take this medicine that I hate all the stuff is disgusting. I’ll golden seal on it got me eat and cook how powder of the cow blitz cow beans because my my brain activity is so slow somatic stoutest of the disgusting there will be now you are calling you because you allowed it to drift for so long, you get a jump start the nervous system again you know so you can start feeling and moving in a way we’re bringing about improve mental emotional and physical well-being yourself back to what you may consider to be optimal state of balance and alignment so you know I soon speak on that somewhat briefly I want I wanted to give you all that to think about this evening when we consider meditation we consider self-assessment understand it is not always going to be an enjoyable experience but it quite a necessary one to realign ourselves I and I and I urge you all to reassess constantly pretty much daily every time the sun goes down it comes back up I think about what I accomplish you know the day before what do I want to accomplish today you know am I moving closer to where I would like to be in and a monthly to a bigger assessment and then you know seasonally do another bigger even bigger assessment getting yearly do a big one in a and he may do that certain important dates that you consider me my 30th birthday my 40th at the 50th at the so for the sulcus rites of passage never never truly ends but meditating and I did a show meditation already can check that one out is your medicine can assess and if you don’t assess you don’t already know which of accomplish what you good at what you need to improve on and you want to do from perspective of you highest spelled self not to personality which is affected by external influences or someone says what are you doing several people tell me I’m people talking about the spirit spirit changes all the time this is one little part of you that other parts we got assess everything grows at the same time so you may be working out strong bodies nice in tone and firm and you got a sick mind trust me you got sick body may be a way around you may be studying invokes you got all his knowledge and this and that you know you you have a constant IV of our snack cakes you have a soul food fetish you know trust me in mind a sick spirit is sick everything grows in heels at the same time not independent of one thank you all for listening that is bent on the ground those days I might mention estimation I am chief you yeah Chief Judge of the under spiritual order had instructed the subdue how spiritual center not a student of stew house become one nce and your part is it always goes beyond just letting something happened to you are picking the wrong person to marry your not listening to your friends when he told you that a person was negative and if you can’t honestly ask yourself that question honestly answer it is to keep going in circles that’s the first thing you want to do when you don’t a proper self inventory and assessment Anna and I want to share something on what you think about something you know it’s not to be something that feels good you know you not to feel good we think about it because if you’re a situation that is uncomfortable or disagreeable is because you did something you did something